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June 5, 2006 • 1:58 pm
subject: old friends
mood: content

Once upon a time..

eh.. okay never mind. So this weekend we went up to Gateway to pan for gold in the creek. That was alot of fun, we got pretty damn wet, and found alot of fools gold LOL! After that we continued on our way up the mountain and went to the lovely Uranium filled town of Naturita to have lunch. We were originally going to have lunch in Gateway, but when we got to the place, they kept giving us shitty looks, I asssume it was because we were still a bit wet and slightly dirty. Assholes. People are nicer in Naturita. They don't care if you are dirty. While we were there I asked about a friend that I had not seen or heard from in about 3 in a half years. She was probably the closest friend I have ever had, next to Marius. We had a falling out a few years back due to some silly restraints. I wont say what kind because that runs quite personal for us both. Anyway, I wasnt sure she would even WANT to see me, but I had to try, because I missed her so much it literally made me sick sometimes. I asked the waitress if she knew her, and as it turns out, she had just left there only a few minutes before that. Marius said she must have known we were coming. I wasnt going to accept that and I asked the waitress if she knew of any way to get ahold of her, and she said yes, and gave me the name of a place, where there was someone who would know where she is. (gotta love small country towns)

We finished our lunch and Marius took me to the place, and I saw the woman who would know, and she did. She called her and I got to talk to her. We met a few minutes later. At first, her hug was gentle, even though I wanted to squeeze the breath from her. That scared me. I thought that maybe this would definatly be the closing for us. We went to the park so the kids could play and we could talk. We were there for a few hours, and talked like we had only just talked yesterday. It had been as if the past few years never were. It felt so good to be there with her, sitting on the swings, just going back and forth, listening to her laugh, and talk. I was sad to hear of all that had gone on in the last few years.. sad I had not been there with her.. but I am to have her back now. When we hugged goodbye, she hugged me back just as tight as I hugged her. I knew that hug would not be the last.

She just called me a little while ago, and we talked for 2 hours straight. Just like old times.


will ETA pics later.

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May 25, 2006 • 12:18 pm
subject: guess it's time
mood: contemplative

to update or something right? Because, you know it's been awhile. It isnt as if I have anything worth saying though. That's the reason I havent updated. I dont ever have anything to SAY. My life is BORING.

I'v started kick boxing twice a week, and it's alot of fun, but I dont know how much fun it will be now that it's been tainted by the instructors helper who is the husband of a new friend of mine, and I found out he is cheating on her. So it will be hard going to class because he will be there and I have nothing but contempt for him now. He is an arrogant SOB, and I HATE guys like that. Truely. I like to take guys like that and show them that they arent shit.Or, that they ARE shit actually, especially this one. THIS one I have a personal vendetta against because he was hitting on ME.

We got a new puppy the other day. He is SO DAMN CUTE, and so far is a good puppy. We only had him 2 days when our friend Daniel came and dropped off his rat dog Obie, who I can't stand. He is staying here until tomorrow night. So having a new puppy for the family to get used to, AND this other dog.. who does NOT like Lucien one bit - this SUCKS. and my cats hate us right now. The puppy isnt a big deal. He is great, but Obie is a pain in the ass bc he hates Lucien and so they fight constantly. Obie is an older dog.. and Lu is still a puppy! (only almost 8 months old) So Lu wants to PLAY.. but he is like 90x bigger then Obie. At least Loki wants to play back. *sigh*

Tomorrow is Mine and Marius' wedding anniversary! 6 years! Our being together one was the 23rd.. we have been together (like, living together) for 8 LONG years LOL!

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April 28, 2006 • 10:41 am
subject: Letter MEMEMEMEMEMMEEEEE
mood: tired

Swiped from kathrynthegr8 . This is how it works: comment on this entry and I will give you a letter. Write ten words beginning with that letter in your journal, including an explanation what the word means to you and why, and then pass out letters to those who want to play along.

I got the letter "T". 

TULIP: my childhood nickname that stuck. Did you know that the original Jack and the beanstalk Giant's name was Tulip? That's where I got it.

Tonsils: I still have them and they hurt right now.

Topamax: one of the meds Im on, and by far my favorite. It has caused a weight loss of  61 pounds in the past year.

Trileptal: another med I am on. If I go for more then 16 hours without it, my scalp and face start tingling like my feet do when they are asleep. NOT pleasant.

Trees:  I love trees. We are planting trees like mad right now. Mostly because only 2 out of  3 will live. We have planted 6 so far.

Three: the number of children I have had. and will eventually have again, even if they are adults by that time.

Twenty five: my age. I really feel old. I know Im not, but I see little signs here and there and think "holy shit! Im NOT as young as I was!!"

Television: Something I am regretibly starting to watch more. I blame having to sit around because of this surgery.

TVH-BSO:  removal of uterus and both tubes and ovaries thru the vagina. What I had done only 5.5 short weeks ago. .. and I feel great with the exception of being psychoticly tired all the damn tired!!

Totally: the word I use to describe so much. I say this word so much it's not even funny.

if you havent stopped by to see my new layout do! its purrty! thanks Cherrystyle!


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April 26, 2006 • 10:32 am
subject: Voice Post

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April 25, 2006 • 5:35 pm
subject: Jennaisms (on growing up)
mood: amused

Jumping on the band wagon.. since I have read a few other friend's kidisms.

Jenna: Im growing up!
me: Good! get a job and move out! (mommy is sick and in a bad mood today)
Jenna: I cant, Im not grown up YET *eye roll* .. I have to go potty for a long day first.
me: so, after you go potty alot, you'll be grown up?
Jenna: Yep! Then I'll have a wedding! *rushes off the the bathroom*

ten or so minutes later, I peek to see Jenna is indeed still on the potty...

me: whatcha doing?
Jenna: *staring at me like Im a moron* Im growing up
me: ... oh. you know, you DO look a bit taller!
Jenna: see? I told you.
Jenna: ...Mommy? will you help me wipe good?



In other news, im 5 weeks post op today. I have a Doctor appointment on Thursday, where he will then dig into my vagina.. AGAIN. (as if he hasnt done that enough) He'll tell me if it's safe to resume sex.. as if I havent already been doing that. But the last time we did, I actually let him go in all the way and it freaked us both out a little..

*sigh*

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April 13, 2006 • 12:49 pm
mood: awake

As I sit and look out my window, a group of men are standing outside that are supposed to be working, to fix a crack that THEY put in my driveway by driving their huge ass cement truck over the corner of it while building the neighbors house a few months ago. It's nice to see they are having such a nice time chatting away with all my other neighbors. They didnt even bother to SHOW UP until now. (it's 10 till 1pm) Asshats.

I havent been very sociaable lately, since my surgery. I have really been keeping to myself, not really wanting to talk to anyone, not wanting to be around anyone. I just want to be alone, with my family. Im not depressed, I dont feel the slightest bit sad about what happend, actually, I feel better then I have felt in 12 years! I just dont want to talk to anyone, or be near anyone. I have been a bit (probably a little more then a *bit* snappy) at times with Marius, but not always. I think my body, hormones and whatnot is just learning to regulate itself after everything. I mean, it's only been 3 weeks. I dont know. I hate not knowing what to expect.

an update on the ONE peice of drive way.. I now have 6 men outside.. 2 of them doing work, the other 4 standing around, and the old guy accross the street has been standing there the entire time, probably trying to tell them exactly how to do their job. ( I really.. REAALLY cant stand that guy).

Fuck. I hope I dont pull out of my garage and right into the wet cement. Thats going to suck. I woud rather run over the rose bush LOL! *sigh* I should go..my thoughts are getting all choppy.

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April 5, 2006 • 11:24 am

for habibekindheart

It is not folly, but chicanery, that would encourage an intelligent people to defenestrate logic in a confluent orgy of stupidity to deceive the population into believing that duct taping children in chairs is a message of benignant succor, and not just the heartless stance of the paterfamilias.

hehe, there, I used em. :P

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April 5, 2006 • 11:21 am

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOODWINGS!!!! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

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April 3, 2006 • 5:55 pm

So my kids are in the shower together. (boy and girl, ages 6 and 4 respectivly, if you dont like it, deal with it)

then thy are arguing over the water, as usual. then one says to the other:

"mind your own business!"

which I find highly amusing since they are naked in the shower.

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April 3, 2006 • 2:58 pm
subject: jumping on the meme bandwagon blame habebekindheart
mood: still bored

1.Have you ever been searched by the cops?
Yep

2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters?
haha, yeah

3. When was the last time you went sledding?
when I was like.. hell, I dont even remember. 13?

4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone?
depends on the night

5. Do you believe in ghosts?
of course I do.

6. Do you consider yourself creative?
occasionally

7. Do you think O.J. killed his wife?
are you serious?

8. Jennifer Aniston or Angelina Jolie?
Jolie

9. Can you honestly say you know ANYTHING about politics?
Yes,but not much

10. Do you know how to play poker?
no

11. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
Yes,several times.

12. Have you ever cheated on a test?
Yes

13. Who was your first love?
Derek Whelan

14. If you're driving in the middle of the night, and no one is around you, do you run a red light?
lol, no

15. Do you have a secret that no one knows but you?
If I did, I wouldnt tell you. 

16. Boston Red Sox or New York Yankees?
ummm... are those teams or something?

17. Have you ever been ice skating?
no, but I plan on applying for a job at a rink. funny huh?

18. How often do you remember your dreams?
not too often

19. When was the last time you laughed so hard you cried?
the day before yesterday.. I think. recently at any rate.

20. Can you name 4 songs by The Beatles?
umm.. no.

21. What's the one thing on your mind?
My ass hole hurts. (hey, you asked)

22. Do you believe in love at first sight?
actually, yes. Because I belive in destiny.

23. Do you know who Ba-Ba-Booey is?
WTF is that?

24. Do you always wear your seat belt?
only when I am in a vehicle. why would I wear one any other time? moron.

25. What talent do you wish you had?
The ability to be rich and have a maid LOL!

26. Do you like sushi?
*rushes to toilet, vomiting can be heard*

27. Have you ever narrowly avoided a fatal accident?
yes

28. What do you wear to bed?
whatever I want. why are you asking me these questions? getting a bit personal arent we?

29. Have you ever been caught stealing?
okay.. I wasnt the only one who did it!! how many times do I have to tell you?? I paid the damn fines, did my jail, AND 6 fucking years probation.. drop it already!!! 

30. Does size matter?
we're talking about wallets right?

31. Do you truly hate anyone?
well...

32. Rock or Rap?
not rap.

33. If you could sleep with one famous person, who would it be?
only one? give me a minute to think about that one.. *starts crossing people off the list*

34. Do you know anyone in jail?
probably *sigh*

35. Have you ever sung in front of the mirror?
all the time

36. What food do you find disgusting?
Most of what people call food is disgusting.

38. Did you ever play, "I'll show you mine, if you show me yours"?
*cough*

39. Have you ever made fun of your friends behind their back?
Yep.

40. Have you ever stood up to someone for someone you hardly knew?
of course. people can be  assholes.

41. Have you ever been punched in the face?
yes, I have.

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